Completion of My Life as Brother Geronimo (and of this blog)

I am no longer a Franciscan.

I am a man who loves Life and defends her to the death.

I am Geronimo.

Freedom

I love freedom.

And it seems that as I age, I become more free by the grace of the Almighty.

Life never ends -- that's really hard for me to accept sometimes, but beneath all the illusions, that seems pretty solid to me at this time: I believe in Life more than I believe in Nirvana.

That's the best I've got for now.

Love,
Brotha G

I RELEASE YOU

All of you:

St. Albans, friends, family, and all my relations.

Welcome back to the Mystery...

Love,

Brother Geronimo
Hampshire Tower Apartments
7401 New Hampshire Avenue
#1100
Takoma Park, MD  20912-6955
brothergeronimo@gmail.com
301-375-5982

Thank You, May Sarton

“The more articulate one is, the more dangerous words become.”
― May Sarton

Those who know me know that I am a Force of Nature to be reckoned with when it comes to words -- backed with exceedingly precise and relentless nonviolent direct action.

If I don't get what I want from St. Albans by 12:01am on Wednesday, April 24, 2013, I will take action.

Stay tuned.

Love,

Brotha G

Dipping My Finger in the WAR PAINT

Dear Readers,

I'm preparing to go nonviolently, outrageously, MLK BALLISTIC on St. Albans High School in Northwest Washington, DC.

I am in no hurry because I already hold all the cards.

More to come.

Love,
Brotha G

Shedding My Skin

I had an interesting conversation with my consigliere earlier today.

I made two requests of him:

1) Please do not say anything to me any longer about: meds, bipolar, mental illness, etc.

2) Please try not to worry about me so much.

My consigliere is great. By my count, he always tells me the truth, quite directly -- and also compassionately. It will be hard for him to honor my requests because he cares about me so much. I don't mind so much if he has a hard time doing that. I know that he loves and respects me, and that is enough. MORE than enough, actually. He is a great guy, and he helps me a lot.

Love,
Brotha G

Firing This Mutha Back Up

I'm back. Still G. Still Me.

For those of you who are inclined to encounter Brotha G completely unleashed, and not (necessarily) rated G, please check out my Facebook page at

http://www.facebook.com/brothergeronimo

and consider friending me.

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So, it's the beginning of March.

Atalanta and I are dancing the mating dance, and it is Beautiful. Absolutely so.

I sent her flowers, which will arrive tomorrow:

I am sending her a balloon with the flowers that says, "I Love You" on it.

Atalanta hates it when I tell her I love her. She says, "But you don't know me!"

I counter, "I've been around the block a few times, AND I KNOW WHAT I LIKE and WHAT I LOVE!" And she is DEFINITELY a Keeper.

Stay tuned, Race Fans!

Love,

Brotha G

Welcome to 40 and Welcome Parlez-Vous

I turned 40 on the 20th, and it's been a wonderful experience. 6 Star all the way.

My good buddy Parlez-Vous may be participating in this blog at some point, and we wanted to share a link with you all to introduce him:

http://streetsense.org/2013/01/weaving-tales-out-of-shadows/

And here is the Facebook page for his LLC, The Dopamine Clinic.

Enjoy!

Love,
Brotha G

Bored

I'm bored with my blog for now, and might take some time off.

Let me know in the comments if you are reading this and want me to continue.

Love,
G

Rocket Science

All is well with Dr. Hardy. We have an understanding.

I'm at the Takoma Park Library now. Relaxing and picking up some cash.

Love,
G

Arrival

I have arrived.

I am so happy.

I've been running back-to-back marathons for almost 40 years, and I'm finally settling in to a relaxed working retirement.

As my beloved Dad wrote on his and Randi's most recent holiday greeting card:

"Wishing you Plenty of Time in the Saddle in 2013"

(Metaphorically speaking) I've never been on a horse before, and yet it's the most natural thing in the world to finally just be Myself. Back in Black. Back in the Saddle.

Thanks, J.C. Mad props for helping me make the transition.

Love,
Brotha G

prayer I wrote at the beginning of my stay at shady grove adventist hospital

I don't ask to perform miracles, Lord.

I only want to partake deeply everyday of the Rich Banquet You have set before Me. When You call me to Die (if you do), please lead me to the place where I can best fulfill the Work that You would have done in heaven, Earth, hell, or any other place known or unknown to Man.

In the Name of Jesus Christ I pray -- AMEN

New Friends

Dear Readers,

I have lots of new friends here at the hostel.

Let me tell you about 3 of them:

Brother Epson and I are enjoying the blogosphere together. I met him last night. He likes Hip Hop and watches the markets. I'm looking forward to getting to know him better.

Brother Gypsom is from Korea. We might go out for a beer tonight. Epson might join us.

Brother Velocipede is improving FEMA's responses to disasters (he's a computer engineer).

I'm surrounded by genius and friendliness.

Love,
Brotha G

Chillin' at the Hostel

I have no idea what time it is here at the hostel. I only know that I am happy and in good company.

I had a shot of 1800 tequila (gold) with my yucca appetizer before sharing beef enchiladas (for dinner, around 6pm) with Brother Cypress back at his office.

I went back and read my posts from before this last hospitalization. I'm very pleased with how things went. Meeting God can be a real pain, but I guess we all go through that at least once in a lifetime. When I meet Him again, maybe I'll recognize Him from further away. Nice to have a minute to brush my teeth and floss first. :)

I am so Happy. Very peaceful too.

Have to admit, I didn't take my night-time meds because the pharmacy was closed. Going to the pharmacy first thing Saturday, though. Obviously, I'm not perfect. And now that God and I have an understanding, I have more room to defend my imperfection when others start demanding that I be perfect!

I love Me!!!

Love,
Brotha G

Gradatim Ferociter

Today I was discharged from Shady Grove Adventist Hospital. Once again, I am unleashed upon the world!

I love to say that :)

So, I'm staying at a hostel in downtown DC. Checking out a room for rent in Glenmont tomorrow afternoon. I have a new woman in my life. Let's call her Atalanta. I love spending time with her, and I hope to spend some quality time with her soon.

Keeping this entry short so I can move on to other things I need to take care of (filling my scrips at CVS).

My dad was in the Air Force. He told me about something they used to say back then:

We the unwilling,
led by the unknowing,
have done so much
with so little
for so long,
that we are now qualified
to do anything
with nothing.

Sending lots of love to all you, my Peeps out there.

Love,
Brotha G

BTW, check out http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Blue_Origin if you are not familiar with the Latin title of this post.

I'm Very Good At Sizing Up the Competition

I hate crime dramas. More on that later.

On the agenda today:

1) Finding new housing accommodations (without the support of the Crisis Center -- they are not willing to continue working with me)

2) Healing my various traumas slowly but surely (today I'm going to be spending time in the "James Brown Celebrity Hot Tub" -- that's what I call the Holiday Inn, Gaithersburg hot tub. For obvious reasons -- whatever that means.) Specifically I'm healing my plantar fasciitis in both feet, as well as getting over Rose a day at a time.

3) Looking forward to receiving calls and visits from loved ones as I sort out my options and next steps. (Stop by or call anytime before I check out tomorrow morning -- Monday -- before noon).

BTW, I would love to go down to the Inauguration if anyone is willing to help me make that Dream come true.

Love,
Brotha G

Breakfast at the Victory

Dear Readers,

Just had a big cheeseburger at Denny's, courtesy of the Distinguished Congressman (metaphorically speaking) from New York (R), alias: Brother Forte.

We shucked and jived with the best of them, including the Distinguished Mr. Z, and the Ritz-Carleton of Congresswomen, the wondrous Ms. M.

All in all, a good time with plenty of cherry Coke.

Love,
Brotha G

LIfe is Scary

But Beautiful!!!

Looking forward to some Mickey D's. What's more American than Jesus and McDonald's?

I know that the Universe is a friendly place -- and it helps when you approach the Mystery with Friendliness first! The Mystery is feminine, and it's important to listen to what She says -- otherwise, she might have to get a little rough with you. Love the Mystery, and She will Love you right back!

And She still scares me a lot sometimes. Is that part of the Mystery?

Boo!

Headed to McDonald's

Eating soon. New friend buying.

Yum!!!

New Friend

Just met a new friend. Looking forward to sharing a meal soon, hopefully.

Thunder Road

For now, I am focusing on Thunder Road, the company I would like to grow slowly and steadily.

As I proceed through this spiritual emergence, I would like to find a gentle balance between work and play, making money and being a responsible philanthropist.

It gets a little easier as I go along. The spiritual scouring will take time to heal up, but it seems like I'll be good to go as things come along.

Moments of Clarity

As I go along, I am learning to let go of things that are no longer useful to me: like running for U.S. President.

I am letting go of that dream because it is interfering with my peace of mind.

My spiritual emergence is in the process of scouring that dream out of me.

Wow!

Let's Talk About This Bipolar Thing

Dear Readers,

Labels can be useful. If anyone finds it useful to label me as bipolar, that's OK.

The same man can appear differently to different people. That is to be expected.

I would like to build a strong base of people who have positive projections about me, rather than labeling me as disabled (i.e. bipolar).

I invite all readers (regardless of how they might view me) to contribute Comments on this blog.

If I fight a label, I just give more power to it, so I am putting aside my defenses for the time being.

Brother Geronimo by any other name is still Brother Geronimo.

Love,
Brotha G

First Tentative Steps

Please bear with me...

I'm figuring this thing out as I go along.

The only way I can relate this in a way that feels OK to me is to call what I'm experiencing a "spiritual emergence". Please check out Stan Grof's work on this subject if you'd like to learn more. This book in particular was helpful to me as I began my spiritual emergence journey around 1996.

In layman's terms, basically, I'm experiencing the divine spark within me, and Honest to God -- it hurts like Bloody Hell. That spark is giving me a gigantic spiritual enema. Sand-paper style. It really hurts.

So, there's a big metaphorical Hole in the middle of my (for lack of a better word) soul -- which will pass, when God has finished his work on me for the time being.

I'm just trying to surrender to His will while He...prepares me (or whatever it is we would like to call it). I'm not set on any terms in particular, I'm just doing my best to allow this thing to pass. I know that this experience is for the best, but it really hurts quite a lot.

And we all go through this in our own way (apparently). That belief brings me great comfort. I really need to know that there are other people who go through this type of thing. And that is why I am very grateful for the work of Stan Grof. Others have walked this path before me. I am not alone.

thank you for this therapy

It really hurts to be Brother Geronimo sometimes.

And it hurts to be anyone else human too.

Thank God I'm me, and at the same time, please be gentle with me, Lord.

I break easy (from time to time).

Turning 40 is quite a landmark. My 40th is this February 20th.

I think John Lennon was 40 when he was shot. I miss that man, basically to the point of tears, but I need to conserve my tears right now because I'm channeling that energy into other areas.

Lovingfriendliness,
Brotha G

The Simplest Way I Can Put It

The part of me that is God is currently burning a hole through my soul. And it's really scary. And I'm really glad I could put that into words.

Ouch.

I am working on this thing a little at a time

It really hurts. And I'm moving forward slowly.

I Am Scared

I am scared because -- I can't say it. It hurts too much.

I Am At My Breaking Point

Please pray for Brother Geronimo.

Welcome, Readers of Suelo's Blog

Shout out to any reader's of Suelo's blog who are joining us for the first time.

Suelo's blog is at

http://zerocurrency.blogspot.com

Daniel Suelo is one of my inspirations, and I regard him as both an Elder and a Brother on our common path of what I would like to call "The Economy of Generosity". I hope Suelo does not object to that particular name for a concept that is still emerging (as far as I can tell). Suelo, feel free to weigh in below in the Comments. Thank you!

Lovingfriendliness,
Brotha G
Holiday Inn
Gaithersburg, Maryland
Room 116

Second Pass

Dear Readers,

I've made a second, more detailed pass through my previous posts.

I believe we are Golden as far as being G-rated. Please gently correct me if I happen to be incorrect.

Love,
Brotha G
Holiday Inn, Gaithersburg
Room 116

Making an Effort

Hello, Dear Readers

I have deleted several posts with strong language in the titles. As I have the inclination, I will review other previous posts and delete them according to their "rating."

My goal is to be completely G-rated by the end of January. You can help me by bringing to my attention any language that you find objectionable (especially you, Mom and Ivy Ross Ricci).

I am not promising to remove a post (or edit it) in response to your Comments, but you have my word that I will review very carefully (as I have the time) any dialogues that go on here at Liquid Steel Magnolias.

BTW, if anyone would like to know what LSM (Liquid Steel Magnolias) means to me, and why I have chosen that title for my blog, just ask.

Lovingfriendliness,
Brotha G
Holiday Inn, Gaithersburg

A Bit of Truth

Dear Readers,

No one has answered my straw poll, and I have come to a decision:

I want my blog to be rated G, so I'm going to delete some posts that are too over-the-top.

I don't want to hide my strength, and I also want to be your "Friendly Neighborhood" Brotha G (FNBG).

Please forgive me for not being Perfect once again.

Pretty soon, I'm going to stop apologizing so much.

Jesus just built me this way, so please find it in your hearts to accept with without my asking for Forgiveness so frequently.

Love, and One Last Apology (for now),
FNBG
Holiday Inn, Gaithersburg
http://higaithersburg.com
Room 116
Staying under the name "Matthew Pflantzbaum" (at least for now)

Straw Poll

Should I delete the previous posts that are viciously R-rated?

Love,
G

Burning Out the Anti-Psychotics and Mood Stabilizers

Dear Readers,

Lots of Caffeine and Prayer are BURNING all prescription psychotropics out of my System.

Please pray for Rose, as she is probably having a rough time of things. I am worried about her.

She definitely has it rougher than me -- I've only missed a few meals. She's dealing with the prospect of living without heat and plumbing, at least temporarily.

Any money I have will go directly to her -- after I eat. I can't immediately help her while I'm still bootstrapping myself.

If anyone cares to check in with Rose over the phone (if you have her phone number, which I am not sharing here in order to protect her privacy), please feel free to share Comments below -- I've been advised by Montgomery County authorities to avoid direct communication with Rose for the time being.

Love,
Brotha G

I'm Referring All My Email to This Blog Now

If you want to reach me over the Internet, you've got to use one of the Comments sections below.

Keepin' it real. For real for real.

Love,
G

Cleaning Up My Blog

I'm expecting my mother, Kate Moss (not the model), to be reading this blog more soon (hopefully), so I have largely cleaned up my language: Mom, please let me know if you'd like me to "adjust" anything.

Love,
G

P.S. Lots of festivities here at the Holiday Inn. We are on the Verge of Obama's 2nd Inauguration, and everyone is drinking but me (G). I'm keeping it real with buttloads of coffee and a few cigarettes that I bum off the partiers. I haven't eaten since breakfast, but maybe I'll get some coffee cake when I go to the 11am church service at Holy Redeemer Gaithersburg tomorrow. Anyone is welcome to come and join me.

Love,
G

All Is Well

Thank you for reading my blog.

Sincerely,
Brotha G

Don't Be Afraid To "Follow" My Blog Either!

Love,
G

Paisley Park

The morning was absolutely FEROCIOUS.

Now I'm smoothing out the rough spots with Jergen's (metaphorically speaking, of course).

Love,
G

A New Friend

I have a new friend.

For the sake of protection, her name shall be "Sister A".

Sister A is here at the hotel on business, and I hope that we can get to know each other during our overlapping stays here.

I invited her to talk if we end up in the James Brown Celebrity Hot Tub together.

Love,
G

P.S. The coffee is wearing off, so I'm chillin'.

Did You Know That Coffee is an Appetite Suppresant?

I just discovered that from personal experience.

I feel great!

Love,
Brotha G

Drinking all the complimentary Fine Colombian that I can get my grubby little hands on.

:)

My mind is Tiffany Twisted, and I've never been cooler or smoother in my life.

ROCK SOLID!

Brother J and I are planning to take a Hot Tub here at the Hotel early this evening. I'm changing his name here to protect him, because I take care of my Peoples.

BRING YOUR ALIBIS!!!!

I love you readers so much. I would do anything for you -- but I won't do THAT.

Love,
Last Thing I Remember Geronimo,
Your Everlasting Patron of Peace

Ladies and Gentlemen: IT NEVER ENDS. And that does not have to be as scary as Heck. Because Jesus (or whatever you call Him) loves us that much.

Burning Through Every Illusion, One Day At A Time,
Love,
G

Jesus Please Us

I figured out the secret to getting more time on the internet.

But now this 40 y.o. body has to take a morning "constitutional" (as they say), so I'm going to make this short and sweet, then get back to you soon.

Rose and I are splitting up. She's been battering me, and Montgomery County is helping me find transitional housing as I build Thunder Road (my business) from the ground up.

Love,
G

Very Tired, Very High

The words all rhyme, and I'm in outer space. Today is the day.

Please Leave Comments

I want to hear from you all!

Good Works

Great day planned for today:

1) At 1:30pm, Phil Collins (that's a code name) is picking me up from the Loftstel. We're going to work on my web tribute to Mom in honor of her recent birthday.

2) Here's a great story that really just happened:

I was outside this library where I am typing now. There's a hot dog vendor. I walked up to the vendor and said, "I have a joke for you if you'd like to hear it, but I don't have any money for a dog." He said, Cool.

"What did the zen master say to the hot dog vendor?" Then I explained to him a little about Buddhism.
"Make me one with everything!"
The vendor smiled -- then the guy sitting on the steps of the library comes over and says, "I heard you don't have money for a hot dog -- what'll it be?"

So I said, "What did the African-American zen master say to the hot dog vendor?"
Then I gave the punchline (which was also my order): "Give me an M-F-in' Hot Dog!!!"

Needless to say we all laughed together, and I had a meaty breakfast.

Love,
Brotha G

God takes care of God (especially when He smiles).

Lover Please
Do not Fall to Your Knees
It's not Like I Believe
In Everlasting Love!!!!

Loftstel DC

I'm not sleeping rough!!!

I'm at the Loftstel DC. Google us if you want to call me here.

Love,
Brotha G

Sleeping Rough

I'm Sleeping Rough tonight, and loving life. Reminds me of the good old days when I was peacewalking from DC to Kentucky.

All is well, and I'll get as much sleep and warmth as I can along the way.

My feet are in good working order, so everything else is easy.

Love,
Brotha G

New Business Ventures

Thunder Road is not about profit: it is about Passion.

Right now I am getting involved in two industries: pizza and art.

I am developing a sales and marketing position with Angelico Pizzeria. Hopefully I will have some good news about that today.

My other front is a way for me to combine my love of nudes with the astonishing beauty of local DC Metro area women. I want to produce (and possibly direct) a coffee table book or tasteful movie that incorporates three values: freedom, tasteful erotica, and the Holy Hand Grenade (it has to do with Monty Python, and I will develop that principle as we continue this journey together).

For now, suffice it to say that my whistle is absolutely clean, and we are going to have some good, clean, naked fun. It's going to last a very long time, and we are going to have plenty of gourmet pizza for EVERYONE!

Love,

Brotha G

301-439-3000, room 155

Quality Inn, Takoma Park, Maryland

Shout Out to David at Washington Adventist Hospital

David at Washington Adventist Hospital said he would move to Canada if I am elected.

Start practicing the accent of your new people and drinking Molson, David. It's going to be a long, cold winter. 

;)

Love,

Brotha G

Hand Delivering a Letter to Bubba from Yamato

There's a story here too. Just ask, brothers and sisters. My Life belongs to You.

I'm sorry I'm so cheesy. I can't hide my heart much anymore. It's been blown open by all the love that beautiful women have given me over the years.

I ask your prayers for Charla Chamberlain in Portland, Oregon. She may never understand the gift that she gave me. She is still very afraid of me.

Love,
Brotha G

Mom with Me and Bubba

There's a story about why Bubba put his arm around Mom. If you ask me in the comments, I'll spill the beans. It's not what you think.

Love,

Brotha G

Picture from just before W. took Office

It takes one to know one:

You can tell I almost crapped my pants because I was so nervous.

Bill Clinton will always be Bubba to me. I love that man. Just saw him doing video clues on Jeopardy the other night too. Please pray for Hillary, friends. She is a good, patient, loving woman.

Rose is Now Officially a Ghost

A song by Laura Marling:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t31EbBikzDE

Mom's Birthday

Kate Moss (my mother, not the model) was born a few years back.

Today she is another year wiser and simpler.

God Bless You, Mom. I love you more than you will probably ever realize.
On Today's Agenda:
1) Bank transactions

2) Work on my web presence some more

3) Develop my relationship with a potential client for my business (my business is called Thunder Road. I started it last year, and I want to get it off the ground this year). My potential client is Angelico Pizzeria (specifically, I intend to start with the Georgia Ave. branch).

4) Work with Josh Kamensky on establishing some kind of payment contract so that he can begin some writing work for me. I went to college with Josh in the California desert from 1992-1994. He is a righteous dude, and I highly recommend considering him if you need any Quality wordsmithing:

http://www.joshkamensky.com/JJKbio/JJKbio.html

Lastly, I would like to say this:

If you ever have any trouble understanding what my bottom line is -- that is where I'm coming from, consider watching a movie called Donnie Darko. If you don't have time to watch that, listen to this song once a week until I start to make sense:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D1Nq086QB1Q


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I don't think anyone out there realizes how much I love each and every one of you.

Except possibly Jackson Browne.

I am not waiting here for Everyman. I AM Everyman. Indeed!

Love Beyond Reason,
Brotha Geronimo

The End of an Era

Rose and I are letting go of each other.

My heart is opening like a sunrise: pure bliss.

I am in love all over again.

Much shock, awe, and the sublime to come.

Stay tuned.

Love,
Brotha G